This week has been insanely busy but I have been enjoying every process. First were the never-ending online assignments; discussions, test reviews and essays. In the midst of the two modules that I was quite confident about getting Distinctions, I had to start studying for my next paper which is Business Law. Ok the stress part isn't here yet, cause I had quality relax n fun apart from the school stuff. Didn't really get much night rest though, and especially so when these few days I started on the B.L. assignment which totally got me stuck staring at my Macbook. Got my classmates's help but y'see, I still got these green veins popping out of my forehead. Haven't had them for a while, which means I haven't been feeling the stress till lately. Gonna need my Yoga again soon after I'm done with all these commitments. So the last time my cousin came over from Perth, I promised I was gonna do something special for her instead of the sweet letters that always got ants coming. I knew cupcakes were always her fave, so I told myself OK! I'm just gonna do that! And in the blink of an eye, 5 months passed and I baked some for her. To be honest, I didn't use Self-raising flour but basic flour with baking soda, did not put enough sugar even after knowing how much that girl needs it in her life, and I didn't get Unsalted butter. Okay what an impression I made... Haha but people who tasted the cupcakes I made gave nice comments though, which is no doubt encouraging :)

I know that in order to live a life that satisfy me, I need to be optimistic. Even like if I do all the stuff on the checklist of the week and I was not enjoying myself at all, there is no point. Of course it is so much easier said than done, but so long you try and give your best, there is always this ray of hope to happiness; being happy in whatever you do. I believe that everything that's done in this world is not just working through physical means or verbally, but hope. So last night I was with one of my favorite people, Whit. We spent the whole night talking about each other and when we got hungry, we hit the nearest 24/7 McDonalds. I began telling her why do I feel sad at night, like something is missing out of my life even though I know I have all that I need; Roy, my family, studies and everything else. She said perhaps I need more adventure. Is happiness an emotion, or just a state of mind? I do know that happiness doesn't come to everybody all the time, but it's like goal-driven and motivated. We all got to know what do we want in life and work toward it. I've been trying... Everything has been good and almost great now. I have the best boyfriend who showers me with endless love every second of my life, being so understanding and loving. I know my family will always be here for me too, just by the way they love me since I was born into this world. I can honestly say, I do feel the doldrums sometimes, but I'm perfectly okay - I'm very happy with what I got and who I am right now...

Anyway, today is my 11th month with my boyfriend, who loves me more than how much he loves eating, vice versa. As usual, I did a scrapbook and whipped up something for him this noon. This time round was Mexican cuisine, Mexican beef (Love the Ground Cumin taste) with Hot Artichoke Dip. Boy, how much he loved it! While I was in the kitchen, he collected my dress from the alteration. We are going to have our Spicy wings at Sunset Grill n Pub after months of talking about it. So excited! And all the more eager to look forward to our 1st year next 16th, which spells my 19th birthday too :)