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I think the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that don’t change when everything else does.

Sometimes the things I complain about the most are the things I care most about. Unfortunately, you don’t always know that before it’s too late.

I just got really hurt. And when that happens, something inside just shuts off.

I'm at that point in my life where things are neither good nor bad. They could be better, but they could be worse.

And I can't look at anything with a purely pessimistic or optimistic point of view. It's just that point in life when you just have to move forward and hope for the best.

This life is what you make it. No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up.

Girls will be your friends – they’ll act like it anyway. Some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything – they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them.

As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And I hate to say it, but most of them – actually pretty much all of them - are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything.

Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything.

Had 3rd year anniversary service for maternal Grandpa during the weekend. Had some catch up with the cousins as well, especially Whitney. Good thing she's only leaving after february, no? At least we can hang out more often now.

Really felt like sleeping the whole time but i tried to stay as awake as possible, though I did doze off several times with the josstix still burning. Far better than the pig at the back, no? Went to club the previous night and came back in the morning with a super red face, and there he was, sleeping right in front of everybody. TSK

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KAWAIIIIII NEHZZ

Everyone was dying to take a picture with her.

Epitome of innocence.

On the first day, this lizard crawled on my left thigh, then hopped down to Nicole's foot. Both of us just stood up immediately and screamed like mad while the rest remained silent. I felt really sick after that, cos it was the first time i had body contact with something which I hate the most and the only phobia I have since young.

So, we went for Happy Meal!!!!!! It really did cheer me up afterward.

And we got keyboards for our toys!!!!!! Over here I look like I've red strands of hair but actually not. Whit said it's very normal to see redheads back in perth, ohwellz wouldn't wanna be deemed as AhliaNZx over here.

My eldest brother was really nostalgic, after seeing how happy the young kids were.

We headed to Soph's place to clean up. While bathing, I had a second encounter with lizard, in just a day!! I stood there for like awhile without moving an inch. Sigh FML. Had my toe nails painted bright pink, really lovin' them. Colours GMH.


Poh Shen. The only cousin I don't talk to other than Pohwei and Liangjoo. But now, I find him kinda nice. Used to think he's the worst among the brothers, oops. Why are you smiling to yourself, Nicole love?

LIANGJOO: BAD INFLUENCE

LUCUS: CUTE. BUT REALLY A NAUGHTY ASS

OKAIIIE I WANNA PLAY L4D 2!!!!!!!!! ANYBODY??

Oh! Here are the pix on Alger's day

We bought stuff from Art Friend

Wrote some nice stuff on 'em

Bet Alger liked all of the wishes

He told me he likes this duck the most! Quack

We got him a little cupcake as welllll, uhmz

We didn't really plan anything, so it was kinda boring

But we did try to make our day much better

Alger to us: "Doesn't matter if there were plans or not, I still enjoyed my day. Thanks for everything, I really appreciate haha. I didn't expect the cards and all"

I miss my bbyg. bff4lyfe<#

things are really screwed up. everyone has got their own never ending unsolved problems and making me all the more troubled. 'xcos you guys are really close to me and i care for y'all which is why it upsets me even more when i hear about unhappy stuff. i just hope everybody feels better soon enuff'. and things go the way we want 'em to be, at least some of 'em. please god, if you're listening, or rather, seeing this. i hope things change for the better, to turn it all around and so i could see sad wrinkles on my friends' faces no more. but honestly, i do not wish just becos of this that i'm talking about, caused my best friend to stop herself from sharing things to me. y'know i'll always stand by her side, to listen to her. never had the thought that she's adding on more burden to me. seeing a best friend smile is the best feeling ever.
“Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever.”

Things only appear good on the surface. Thank you bbyg, who understands me the most. She gives me five kisses everyday. Enjoy our every moment spent together. I know that recently, things become real shitty. Like during the exam period, we were a tad stressed up but we nevertheless encouraged each other all the time, we wanted to really enjoy ourselves and have so much fun every single day right after the last paper. But seems that things aren't going well, the plans didn't really go smoothly and all. Is it just me or what, but i feel that my surrounding friends have been feeling exactly the same way as i, crappy to the max.

Anyway, not like i'm just gonna freaking cry over things, sit down and do nothing. All things will always change for the better. And we can change things, to make life even happier and make the days even better than expected!! EVERYTHING IS UNDER OUR CONTROL, NO? I'm really starting to enjoy the holidays, and not gonna let trivial and worthless stuff affect us, the happy kids.

The last person i'd ever wanna see again. I don't want to hear about that shit any more, enough of all lies. Y'know, that monster used to always call himself a fool. But i just realized that all along i was the fool. Just friggin' get out of my life, i don't need all of these at all. Neither do i need people's comments and anyone to pass judgment. I am fine, doing almost great without any particular guy in my life. Another thing, i've gotten to a point like all i want is just my best friends, and nothing else matters that much. PS: Happy birthday Algernon

As promised, we hit the beach yesterday. The night before, i saw blood, but didn't want to be the mood spoiler so went ahead with the girls' plan. Carrie wanted to tan so badly but there wasn't enuff' sunlight at all, giggles. So we just lay on the colorful mats and stuff ourselves with food like pigs. Then, it started to rain. 2012 was boring to the extreme. I still have Paranormal Activity playing in my mind every now and then, though
I love Nicole and Carrie. They are the best
I miss my bff Ramadan Sha ♥ ♥ ♥

when you fall in love. you fall hard. we’re human we can’t help it. when you love someone, in a way you are trading hearts. you unzip your chest, reach for the heart of your loved and slowly insert it to yours, hoping to lock it away for a forever or two. most of us know the feeling. or maybe not. love is a curiously sly cat. love is falling, but never touching the ground. love is falling up. coincidentally when sitting down to write out each chapter of my life, i always seem to spit out the same bunches of y’s, o’s, and u’s. you find the person you love and it’s like a car crash. life turns to slow motion. it starts with the loss of breath, slowly makes your insides tingles, and ends with your cheeks being pulled up and away..almost like the puppet master himself is tugging at the strings connected to the corners of your mouth. love is your heart smiling in a monumental way. you start spending time with the person you care for and it only gets better. your nose starts to scrunch your nose a lot more…when you laugh, you laugh differently than you ever had before..because this time it’s real. you become attached to living life horizontally, and hell…you even start watching different tv shows and trying foods that you swore on the bible itself you’d never try. yes..maybe even colliflower. why do we fall in love? is it because we don’t want to be alone? can we help it at all? can love be influenced? whatever and however this little guy works…the job almost always gets done until your slow dancing in the kitchen listening to people with far better class, style, and voices sing to you about songs that make you feel like maybe somewhere in this world there is a niche you can finally fit happily into. and you know what? there might even be space for two.

-alexander deleon

you think about them everyday. you’ve hung all of your memories around all over your mind’s fridge with cute little magnets. you saved the tree bark from the tree you kissed them against. you’ve kept the movie stubs where you snuck out and caught a late night flick about everlasting love. remember walking out and telling them how the love in the movie was nothing compared to the one that you two shared? you hear their voices in the static between the radio stations that play the same 10 songs that they did three months ago. you see their face in your eyes when you look into the mirror for sympathy on the bi-daily basis. loving them was like swinging on a tire swing. hearing their voice sing into your ear was honestly the glue that held your bones together. you’d rather be able to lay under the night and just replay “us” in your head and smile to yourself than hold anyone else. you know it might not last forever. but who is to say forever starts or ends today? just like an old lamp, when the sun burns out…you just have to put a new lightbulb in. i don’t know what this all means..or what i’m really saying. i just know that this world has become so materialistic and none of that matters. my dad taught me my whole life that love is the only thing that matters in the end. we are all going through rough times…but things will get better. find someone that shines through it all. i’m still looking for that.

-alexander deleon

Carrie and i spent our friday night playing l4d with the guys. Kill kill killl!!
Then i finally got to eat home cooked food after months.
Yesterday, we watched Paranormal Activity, have never been this afraid before.
I don't know what got into me. Had to even beg Carrie to accompany me again.

I heard some stuff about you, you're so fucked up. I really feel like killing you.

"So you're leaving now? Told you you'd be the one"

She closed her eyes and pushed the guilt and sympathy out of her head. Does he have a multiple personality disorder? She thinks of it half of the time. It wasn't her fault that he's exceptionally unreasonable, wossit?

Sigh, enuff' is enuff