Dear diary, i haven't seen my friends for so long. Haven't been attending classes for so many times. It was nice of my friends to call me out tonight but i hope they understand that i'm really exhausted after work. Today i ate my lunch alone, came home alone and here i am alone. I cooked my own dinner- Mee Goreng with bacon cheese pizza. Now i'm doing up this post with tears streaming down my cheeks. Aarone just called, i miss him. I dreamt of us having buffet, it was so surreal. So much nice food were in front of us, we seemed happy. He looked even more charming in my dream. Something is missing, something is out of place. I want to stab my heart with a fork so the horrible feeling will go away. Yes, it is that absurd


No one to laugh at my funny socks the first thing i get out of bed. No one to remind me how bad sometimes my attitude gets. No one to snatch my veges and fruits away. No one to admire handsome men on the streets with me. No one to enjoy sushi, subway and movie marathons with me. Part 1 of my rant is over for now. It's all the truth so suck it up and get used to it. Miss you, botak boy