We fall apart and start over again. It happens all the time in fact. The only thing that keeps a person going is knowing. Knowing what is right/wrong from your experiences. I know i may not be the person i was at the beginning of the year. People change constantly, in a good or bad way. I worry all the time and contemplate my navels, but all i'm doing is clear enuff' that i care for myself, isn't it?

The soul inside me has been continually telling me to take small baby steps. But i'm still very worried, with my luck, i'll fuck it up. I've been told recently someone was happy for me because i've finally found myself. I'm much contented with the things around me as compared to the past. I'm slowly learning how to accept all that God has given me, my outer appearance and such. But i always believe i can change myself, to a better person that i've always wanted

I can't wait to taste the best of my life. The day's not here yet, i still have a long way to go. Look on the bright side, that's the point i wanna make. Everyone often say my posts are sad, yes sad things happen to me a lot but everyone says "Look at Anthea she sure is happy and cheerful." Maybe not in those words but i'm sure they did. One of'em is my Aunt. Whenever i hang out with her, sipping coffee or chewing on all food we can find everywhere, she's always telling me stuff like that. And i'm glad i've her in my life as she's been through too much, so much that i've a lot to learn from her. She's always giving me all sorts of life advises that are really helpful

I love how the world is making me grow. All the setbacks, sure i do have a lot of worry winkles but i don't let'em show. My smile wrinkles will always cover'em. Not trying to put on a brave front or pretending everything's fine when it's not. Life is like a ride, we just have to enjoy it. The boys will comment "Why are you talking as if we're having some courses, c'mon enjoy your teenage life and blah blah" It's always good to worry a little, sit down and think of your future. Yes Eugene? And Peisong, like what my brother always says, you're ever so cheerful on the outside. Everyone has its worst. Life doesn't suck if you think positively.