Hilmi

my henna's fading away im thinking of getting a new one again next week. it's so fun!! anyways this inner fat kid in me cant stop thinking of food esp at night like satay curry puff indian rojak quiche wasabi fries cheese cake banana split and before i know it i'm alrdy munching away keeping myself so busy to even talk and breathe ok i cant stop complaining i know it's irritating but iv'e to do smtg about it. it's crazye and moreover i don't exercise eh malu siah dont luff at me lah sey.

hmm let's insert all the punctuations for now! i was at mom's friend's place today, and i just, well, happened to think of Hilmi. remember the times when we argued over the tiniest matter, and i'd tell him i miss talking to him, but he'd tell me he missed me more, then we'd argue over it and both refused to stop. also times when he couldn't stop saying i'm sweet and all, i'm the best, so lovely, so immortal, yeah everything's as perfect until 30 August, 8:29P.m, everything changed. then again, i'd call him ahpek but he warned me not to, cos then, he'd not talk to me again and he'd show that pathetic SARCASTIC sad face. and times when he'd cheer me up cos he never failed to do so!! he's always making me happy, just like my happy pill. once he starts talking to me, i'll automatically feel good. nevertheless, i wanna add that i'd always have a great time whenever we talk. it was never boring at all. we make good companions, don't we? Then, at times, i'd check my inbox and if he'd remember, i did tell him that 90% of my text messages are from him. as i scroll down those texts, i would always smile to myself but also at the same time feel kind of.. sad. but my fave text among them all, was actually, Then you must be the sweet medic. I fight for your well-being while you tend to my lonely and gloomy heart.

woah i didnt realize till now i've been typing so much.
he said it wasn't me, was never my fault. he apologized if he's making things difficult for me but some things are really troubling him and he needs to face them HIMSELF. i then decided to leave him alone, till now. it was weird, not having him around, but somehow i managed to accept it. not totally, but at least i tried and i made the slightest improvement cos Devil no longer listens to my whining and all now. i really miss Hilmi the hardcore smoker :( i miss the good old times!

maybe it's time to stop using punctuations again. cos. i am really tired hahaha
i also miss people like xiaoyin amir syazwan syugah meow carrie bimo fred wiyah jaggi navya etc since it's my holidays gonna need some catching up sessions soon

Karma's being a bitch everything goes full circle just stop it