October 29, 2008

Suddenly i feel a tinge of sadness. I know typing everythign here actually helps so here i am. It's all cool now.. that H's talking to me but the problem that he's been facing is just too much. I can totally understand how he's feeling cos i'm used to all these nonsense too. People just change so fast. It's heartbreaking to know that "close friends" actually don't care about you anymore. For instance you were not around for a period and after some time they just take it that you're dead. It's really sad that they don't take you as a friend like before anymore. Sucks.

I'm feeling shitty right now but. BUT BUT BUT
He apologized. I could see he's rly sorry about it. And he feels he has to make it up for this. So he's getting me a letter!! Haha, i know this is silly but i love reading letters and what's more it's from him. Like how lucky Anthea!! Hee so excited can't waittttt. PS: Was supposed to turn in early tonight so as to readjust my body clock but it's close to 5am and im not in the least tired. Nvm i'll try harder again :)

For months things have been in a standstill. No motivation to do anything. Procrastination's the only word in my dictionary. But after a long chat w him it seems like my world's moving. I'm moving everything's moving. Yup literally. Don't laugh don't laugh it's not funny i'm being serious here. Hmm it's just good that at least i know he's my motivation okay done don't think otherwise (fullstop)!

Before i end this. I know H wont be reading my post and i hope he doesn't. It's perhaps the things we have in common thus i feel we're able to communic8 well and share each others problems. I have my down times too and i prefer sharing it rather than keeping it cos it's rly uncomfortable. Whit ever mentioned that my down times sometimes even exceed my up times and ya even i myself feel the same way too. But H i must let you know you're someone v special to me and we're v far away distance wise but it doesn't affect us i'm glad. One thing if you ever need me i'm just a call away. I'll always be there for you in a heartbeat. Because that's what friends are for.
If I were a boy
I think i could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear i'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If i were a boy, i would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken so they think that i was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first and make the rules as i go
Cause i know that she'd be faithful, waiting for me to come home
Posted by Anthea (born c'92) at 4:31 AM

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